Monday, June 4, 2012

Calendar Weights

Hello Beautiful

Like most members of our society I am tethered to my technology.  Imagining a day detached from my iPad or watching my phone’s last bar of battery vanish are nightmares I wish not to experience.  They connect me to the people that matter most in my world, remind me of the tasks I must accomplish, and balance my time.  Lately I have been feeling the weight of all my tasks.  It seems as though the to do list continually outweighs the time in my budget.

I’m reminded of the Notorious B.I.G lyric that says, “the more money we come across, The more problems we see.”  In this instance the currency is time and the problems are each task we try to squeeze into our lives.  Our world runs at an ever increasing pace.  Last week I had to budget time between family, friends, work, church, design, photography, business development, clients, beach, shopping, sleep, etc.  Wednesday I hit a wall.  The stress of the last several months all caught up when I received two letters in the mail drenched in bad news.  I stood still in my house and told God enough, I am exhausted.

I feel that God often waits for us to throw our hands up.  He pushes us, not to our breaking point, but to our surrendering point.  Constantly challenging us to step-up, and be the incredible beings of His creation.  Simultaneously reminding us of our humble dependence upon His strength.  As I sat in church one verse stood out very strongly. 

Psalms 55:16-17,22
16 But I will call on God,
and the Lord will rescue me.
17 Morning, noon, and night
I cry out in my distress,
and the Lord hears my voice.
22 Give your burdens to the Lord,
and he will take care of you.
He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.

With those words my exhaustion did not vanish.  My budget did not miraculously fix itself.  And I wish I could say that my divine healing came at that moment.  None of this happened.  My creator simply let me know He has my back.  No matter how worn out we have become from the weightier matters in our lives, we have someone that can restore the balance in our calendars and help us accomplish everything He desires for us.

You are beautiful.

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